sunday breeze ;)

today I watched ice age 3 3D… and it’s so funny!!! hehehehe… just like me :p

lucu lucu lucuuuu! gak rugi deh bayar 50 ribu (harusnya sih 70 ribu, hehehehe….). Trus gw ketemu Ayu yang perutnya udah mulai buncit, hihihihi…. aduh, ngga sabar lihat anaknya lahir

trus dia nanya, kapan gw nyusul….

hahahaha, gw jawab, “aduh calonnya juga belum ada, yang pasti sih gw pengen S2 dulu”. Ya iyalaahh, ngapain sih being rush in marriage, ngapain dikejar2…. kayak mau lari aja deh… lahir, jodoh, nikah itu rahasia Tuhan. gw sih nggak kejar setoran, tuh.. ngejar mimpi dulu aja deh, i’m sure God will give me at His best time..!

anyway, hari ini gw capek banget… tadi pulang dari EX langsung ke ambas, aduh kaki ini rasanya mau patah! sekarang juga sebenernya udah ngantuk… zzzzz.. jam 12 mau bobo ah, ngga sabar pengen masuk kantor besok

tepatnya sih, ngga sabar pengen ketemu big boss gw, pengen ngasitau segala hal yang terpendam dalam hati gw… walaupun gw ngga bisa mengatakan semuanya sih, hiks… it’s all about office politic!

well, kemarin itu gw sempet gamang.. apa iya, gw ngga bisa nunggu sampai akhir tahun. kalau dipikir, it’s just another 5 months ahead… trus untuk mengurangi kebingungan gw, gw bikin cost & benefit analysis di spreadsheet. gw tulislah rencana2 besar gw disana.

- umur 23 thn, almost 24… (which is now) = punya karir di marketing

- umur 24 thn= 1 thn berkarir di marketing

- umur 24 menjelang 25 thn = pursuing postgrad degree (Msc in Marketing)

- umur 26 menjelang 27 thn = lulus s2!!

- balik ke indo or kerja disana, yang pasti gw akan meneruskan karir gw di marketing!!

so, then… gw mencapai kesimpulan bahwa 5 months is matter. sekarang apa sih yang jadi penghalang gw buat pindah? duit? temen?

toh gw juga nggak nyicil mobil, nggak nyicil rumah, nggak biayain orang tua atau adek2 gw…. gaji gw sekarang cukup kok untuk gw hidup dan sedikit foya2

temen… emang berat sih, especially when i had special feeling with one of them. tapi, apa sih yang bisa gw harapkan? semakin lama gw disini, gw akan semakin terperosok ke lubang yang dalam. jadi, yaudahlah… just jump!

so, i got nothing to lose!

semua policy-policy yang kaku dan terdengar menyeramkan itu diredam dulu aja deh… dijalani dulu aja…. mungkin ngga seseram yang gw bayangkan

money vs passion battles (i don’t know for how many times)

yup, i am stuck in the same dillemas, like ever….

but, i think we all do. there will be a time for us to choose between money or passion. to choose between rich guy or nice guy. to choose between love or money. yeaaay, the point is: money are toxic! and we all has been toxicate….

well, i have decide to choose passion, with the help of guy’s mind. the magazine was right, man always think one by one, they don’t mix issues. in the other side, woman always put this and that in her thought… in the end it will makes everything complicated. with Temma’s help, i try to define my mama bunny (i called the main objective as mama bunny).

when you already got mama bunny, why hesitate to take the bunny children with you? nothing’s perfect, when you got some you’ll lose some. It’s the main objective which is important….

so, i decide to leave, unless my boss offers me marketing position in my current company.

i decide to do that, until today at 9 PM.

then a guy in product supply manager called me, well he’s my mentor actually.. so, i need his advices… since he’s older than me and i respect his adorable experiences. and well… unexpectedly, he made me more confused!

he said that in his opinion, i have the potential to be a star, i just need to be polished and need more time to develop. he always wanted me to move to demand position, in which becoming his subordinate, and if I can show love to my job, I can be a demand manager.

*twing*

Now I am in the level where I don’t care (that much) about the numbers. but, now I been offered a position. the “manager” words becoming a Whoopie Goldberg song in my mind “Alleluya… Alleluya…”.

being a manager in 25 years old….? uh, no one could resist that.

but, wait a minute. don’t I hate demand more than I have customer service?

oh yeah, the name was cooler, but the job is even more boring…..

numbers, spreadsheets, planning, softwares…. blah blah blah. will I trade my creativity and free soul with position? I kept thinking about it eversince… even until now. that’s the reason I write this entry.

yah, then I open my memory, hidden in some of my neutrons…. I remember the journey i’ve been until I reach this present. applying almost all FMCG company, taking kopaja to reach the selection place until i’ve been to every part of jakarta, even crying in daihatsu’s toilet…. Gosh…. can I trade all of those with the words “manager”?

people said, when you work with passion, you will reach even greater. so, who said I can’t be a manager in my new place? the HR said somebody has suceed to be a manager in 1 year time, so why can’t I?

yaaa… it’s junior manager….. it’s the same.

this is the end of discussion. I think, if i ask more people, I will be more confused. this is the moment i’ve been waiting for.. this is the time when God answer my prayer..  So if I reject it, it means I am being unfair with God.

are you impulsive?

i just realized that all people are impulsive… because we tend to want much and stress much….

my boss who always proud with her “wiseness” in managing her money, suddenly bought a ticket to hongkong and she said “i need a holiday”

my friend who always being a good guy, suddenly in love with a l’il bit naughty girl (i don’t know exactly). well, we all human, and human is not a static creature. we need something different, we changes in time, and we did something stupid.

well, i am an impulsive person, i knew that. eventhough i push myself not to buy something which will make me fatter, uglier, or tasteless, but i ocasionally buy something i don’t need.

well, if you start calculating, the amount will make you upset…. how much money you’ve spent for something useless.. but, anyway, money is only a media. with buying something, you make the money flow runs…. so, take it easy lah. try to manage it while you can, and when you can’t….. just enjoy, like life should be! ;D