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are they megalomaniac alpha male man? they’re still my friends though X-p

This afternoon, while I finished having dinner with my friends, Glenn said that Sandra Dewi had higher class than Dian Sastro. Then it was memorizing me that I’ve been reading Dian’s blog, and unexpectedly it’s kinda interesting…

Then when I came home, I googled for Dian’s blog and found it became more interesting! this is my favorite:
http://blog.diansastrowardoyo.net/2009/02/04/i-wanted-to-be-a-bond-girl/#more-69

shockingly but true… yaps, through this entry, I just realized 2 things:
1. all (pretty) woman is always wanna be even prettier. I thought unsecure feeling only happened to woman like us, like me and Z, or like my boss in the office. I thought extravagant woman like Dian Sastro or Megan Fox (sorry, she’s a guy) don’t feel that way. But, I was wrong. Totally wrong.

Ugly woman wanna be pretty.
Pretty woman wanna be prettier.
Super pretty woman wanna be james bond girl!

but, well, that is so human.
you know that human never feel satisfied, right?
It just that… this fact made me realized to be grateful for who I am now. before, I expect that I will be as great as I wanna be. In fact, i will never be great, because i will always ask for more. so, rather than pushing myself for something I won’t achieved, I’d better enjoy all the things I have now.
Gosh… still in shock.

2. The way Dian wrote about man, the ego-narscistic-megalomaniac-phallocentric-alpha male men, and the fact that James Bond man would go for the mediocre, the less successful girl, the less attractive girl. Maybe it’s just to ensure them with security that this one would need them and stand by them for as long as they live, even though if they’re being an asshole most of the time.

it’s true!

yes, I dealt with it. the handsome man I had adore so much (in the past, not now), said it outloud! that he wants to marry a not-so-smart woman, or even a villagean woman. I don’t know whether he’s crazy, but I know that his ego makes him search for a wife that’s not smarter than him.
That how I learn a man ego.

When I dating my ex, sometimes I pretend to be dumb, and my ex was surprised. he said, “I thought you know everything!”

well, I know man’s ego is larger than their balls. But, until what limit we -the woman, must pretend that we’re dumb?

I don’t know. I just do my best when I remember that I have to push my ego below my man. But, when I don’t, I just go for myself (like that jimmy neutron incident, wakakakakaka….)

well, I know what’s in your head.

If he’s the man, then we don’t need to pretend. well, I’ll go for that man, if that means I have to search for a man smarter than me. But, smarter man is snob. And I hate snob people…

well, we know there’s no such as perfect man. But, I’ll wait until I get that not so ego and phallocentric man to arrive in my life. or, I just had to keep pretending. sighs!