stephworld: live, laugh, love…

yup, i am stuck in the same dillemas, like ever….

but, i think we all do. there will be a time for us to choose between money or passion. to choose between rich guy or nice guy. to choose between love or money. yeaaay, the point is: money are toxic! and we all has been toxicate….

well, i have decide to choose passion, with the help of guy’s mind. the magazine was right, man always think one by one, they don’t mix issues. in the other side, woman always put this and that in her thought… in the end it will makes everything complicated. with Temma’s help, i try to define my mama bunny (i called the main objective as mama bunny).

when you already got mama bunny, why hesitate to take the bunny children with you? nothing’s perfect, when you got some you’ll lose some. It’s the main objective which is important….

so, i decide to leave, unless my boss offers me marketing position in my current company.

i decide to do that, until today at 9 PM.

then a guy in product supply manager called me, well he’s my mentor actually.. so, i need his advices… since he’s older than me and i respect his adorable experiences. and well… unexpectedly, he made me more confused!

he said that in his opinion, i have the potential to be a star, i just need to be polished and need more time to develop. he always wanted me to move to demand position, in which becoming his subordinate, and if I can show love to my job, I can be a demand manager.

*twing*

Now I am in the level where I don’t care (that much) about the numbers. but, now I been offered a position. the “manager” words becoming a Whoopie Goldberg song in my mind “Alleluya… Alleluya…”.

being a manager in 25 years old….? uh, no one could resist that.

but, wait a minute. don’t I hate demand more than I have customer service?

oh yeah, the name was cooler, but the job is even more boring…..

numbers, spreadsheets, planning, softwares…. blah blah blah. will I trade my creativity and free soul with position? I kept thinking about it eversince… even until now. that’s the reason I write this entry.

yah, then I open my memory, hidden in some of my neutrons…. I remember the journey i’ve been until I reach this present. applying almost all FMCG company, taking kopaja to reach the selection place until i’ve been to every part of jakarta, even crying in daihatsu’s toilet…. Gosh…. can I trade all of those with the words “manager”?

people said, when you work with passion, you will reach even greater. so, who said I can’t be a manager in my new place? the HR said somebody has suceed to be a manager in 1 year time, so why can’t I?

yaaa… it’s junior manager….. it’s the same.

this is the end of discussion. I think, if i ask more people, I will be more confused. this is the moment i’ve been waiting for.. this is the time when God answer my prayer..  So if I reject it, it means I am being unfair with God.