i think, love can wait.

when i planned to go to europe, people keep asking me.. how about my bf?

yeah, he always support me and my towards the sky dream (if it’s not big enough, it’s not a dream), that what makes us can go away until 1.5 years.

And now, when God has show me the other way, I accept it gladly.

I am very grateful, even though i did not get the scholarship.. I can get a good job in Singapore.

But, I have to face the very one and only issue.. my dream or my bf.

I knew it won’t be easy, but I don’t know if it’s this hard.

Only a week after we’re apart, he’s crying in front of skype.. we missed each other a lot.

And now, after a 1.5 months apart, I keep crying and crying… because I need him… I don’t know what’s happen to me.

I am just too upset and sad because he’s not here.

I know he’s tortured as well, but he can manage it better than me.

Yeah, I am such a childish.

Maybe that’s explain why I am still in the IC level until now…

Oh God, I need your help again now…

as I always do.. sigh…

it hurts, huhuhu.. it just different with studying in college, sigh

My tips for India trip:

1. India is the same like Indonesia, lots of people trying to rip-off tourists. So, be careful in choosing the right tour guide or when your friend refer for someone. It’s better for you to ask your local friend first. I had browsed for so many tour agent, but I am too afraid to book by internet, so I tried to call one (actually, the guy in my office who called them), and they said no train to Agra because of the winter season, so the fog is so thick. Instead, they offer me a tour with driver and private car. hey, what’s the point of joining day tour if you go with private car?? so, the choice is only 2: going fancy with private car -spend more money but you get the convenience, or go backpacking but it’s really awful IMO. I’ve been backpacking for several times, but I think I cannot survive in India. Looking at the bus has already make me sad.

2. I decide to play safe and rent the car, and it was recommended by a trusted guy in my office. Yet, I am still sure that he got commission. I don’t know is it the culture or what, but you’ll feel that some people are nice because they think they can get some money from you. He said that the tour guide is included in the package. But, in fact when we meet him and walk for a while (FYI the tour guide looks so creepy with a face like mafioso). He kept telling me that Taj Mahal is a gem, and I can see the gem in the marble shops!!! so, 2nd options: you better buy/ rent the audio guide tour from the official in Taj Mahal rather than hiring a tour guide. Well, there some sites that do not provide this audio tour, so my suggestion is to have your local friend with you or a lonely planet book.

3. Friend said, do not give money to the beggar, otherwise you will be surrounded by beggars.

4. Lots of local people there wanna take pic with the foreigners, so even though i’m only chinese person (not a bule – western), they ask for my pictures!! argh…. i’m so paranoid.

5. They said the water there is not healthy.. so always drink bottled water.. and be safe with the foods.

6. When you booked hotel, always read reviews from the previous guests, and always make sure that you don’t missed anything. I mis-write the amount of people staying (1 instead od 2 people), and ended up with the hotel gave me one tiny room, for a deluxe room price!! i screamed and cried there, then they gave me a proper room. it’s really terrible!!

Yeah, lots of things happened to me these few months, so I just lost the motivation to write and share my life journeys.

But, I want to give tribute to Maria, one of my best friend in college who has posted my quote at her facebook status. Thanks gal! you make me wanna write again, especially my dream is to have an Adsense account, since now am a Googler

So, how’s my life nowadays?

It’s been fun, challenging, tiring, and lots of missing moments.

It’s just that, working in Google and abroad are 2 points that has changed my life stage.

You know, working in Google with all it’s facilities had made you think no more about resigning, other life objectives, and you can just be steady.

No, working there is not heaven, because you must be sure that everything has it’s flaws.

Hence, being separated with my boyfriend has made me realized that I don’t wanna be lonely. Lots of success career woman indeed lonely. What is life all about if you’re lonely? You only bought Prada or LV to make you feel better, yet what you need is a soulmate.

working in Singapore is great, especially because I had a wonderful work environment (I do realize that Singaporean culture is not very friendly, but I’m lucky that the company culture is stronger). I just missing one thing, a companion.

When I go home and feel really tired, I am hoping that I can meet someone that means a lot for me. I don’t wanna go home in an empty room.. or house.

Last week my bf visit me for 5 days, and we really use that precious time together, because we know that it would ended soon. We’re not always in good condition, sometimes we fought for small things. But, I guess that is what companion is. I knew that we’re still afraid with the word ‘marriage’ because it last for life. You can’t just change your mind sometimes.. or when something bad happened to your mate, you can’t just runaway. It’s the biggest commitment in your life, including having children.

Anyway, I’ve been pushing my bf so hard to find a job here… while I knew he’s having his moment at Kraft now. I do feel bad, but I also knew that he miss me so much too.

We don’t have much option now. And when we decide to get married, our option will be reduced further. And that’s what you will trade for love. Or at least not to be lonely all your life.

For me,

8 years ago, success is making my mom proud of me, being a busy career woman, and having a lot of money.

4 years ago, success is making people jealous of me and working my passion.

1 year ago, success is being happy.

despite of the definition, we all want to achieve a success in our life.

and after several drop and downs in life to run after those success in life, I knew that the secret of success is something I learned in junior high school:

probability theory.

The more we try, we will fallen over and over.

the more we fall, the more probability for you to get something.

this is the math:

if you try 100 times, you might fall 90 times.

but then, you get 10 success chances.

So, when people consider you’re a lucky bastard, just tell them “I try more, so I can achieve more”.

So, I bet success people must have a stone heart, because they got heartbreak 10 times than average people do!!

in summary, success people try more, heartbreak more, falling deep shit more, devastated more, but they hold the bleeding, keep trying and trying… and they finally get what they want!!

I bet even Galileo or Sir Thomas Alfa Edison experienced it.

it’s not easy to stand still when you’re bleeding.. but life must go on and eyes to the prize who kept remembering me to keep struggling.

So, that’s the answer of people who asked why I can achieve something. Of course with God’s help

after the painful news..

Gos gave me strength, opportunity, and ways..

He has granted me Google Singapore!!

Oh, am so happy!

especially when hearing the offer ;p

it was 3 weeks after my interview in Google Singapore office, in the morning there’s a phone call from Singapore number. I knew it must be the recruiter, so i decide to go from my desk.

“Hi Stephanie, I have received news from the hiring team, and it’s good news”

gue:*mendadak salting*

then when he mention the annual offering, i can’t think cleary (obviously becausei’m so nervous), but fortunately he’s willing to e-mail me, so i can have a clearer state of mind, and imagine my monthly salary :p

then it goes..

the offering is quite good (unlike people said in the net), or maybe it’s because i’m a newbie in Singapore, i don’t know the standard salary I got to accept, but at least i know the standard cost of living there.

it’s enough for me to survive in Singapore jungle ;p

cannot afford a serviced apartment, of course…

I can’t wait to submit the resignation letter to my dear boss… but I should wait until I got the official contract (friends said).

I got the official contract in monday (I got the offering in thursday), got email from other google party in friday to submit several documentations for my working permit application.

and now, 1.5 weeks after I got the working permit approved

yihaaa… 3 weeks to be a singapore worker! Thank God =)

We all adore Google as the company has successfully marketing it’s office environment, so it becomes no#1 workplace in the world, most wanted company, etc.

Google and abroad is the perfect combination, nonetheless for me it’s just a dream to become googlers.. so, i applied it without any big hopes that i will be contacted. I applied for advertising operations associate (bahasa indonesia) position.

several days after, i applied another position in Google, as i assumed i wasn’t considerable for the previous position, so i increase my gut to apply for online campaign manager position, after reading the requirements.

Ta-da, a week afterwards, google HR e-mailed me… what a shock! i was so thrilled, can’t believe Google even consider me! she gave me several questions to answer.. and I answered it carefully. 1 day, 2 days… i didn’t got reply. i know from my friend’s friend blog, that google application will take a long time… the HR usually contacts you 2 weeks each stages. and the staged will took a long journey, 5-7x interview… yet, when you finished all the long stages, they send your CV to USA… and my friend’s friend was failed at their stage.. yes, so bitter. even reading it so bitter.

so, now… when i’m writting it now… the acid in my gastro tickles me… thinking about the last stages i’m currently through…

yap, after total 6 times interview, 2 by phone, 1 by gtalk, and 3 in singapore… now i landed at the last stage.. the HR just sent me a long list questions, and they asked me to re-send my CV.

I’m praying, that whatever the decision is, it’s the best plan from God… because now i realize, there’s something in life we can’t control… even Muammar Qhadaffi got killed when he tried to control everything.

so, c’est la vie…. believe in God’s magical plan…

He decided to sign the contract, at our current company, for the six sigma training.

the contract will happened for 2 years, Jan 2012 onwards.

So then, I need to accept the reality that I will go catch my dream out there, and he’ll chase his here.

we’ll be separated, one year again. hey, it’s a long time indeed!

the good news is: now, we’re still having each other.

so, try to seize the days… as 2 of us.