I never knew that it’ll be this hard..
I meant not for me.. oh, well, I did imagined things I can do with my BF while I was having drinks with some friends at the bar tonight. But, I can distract my mind, since I have lot new places to discover.
But, noticing him playing online games.. just ripped my heart. Now I know, he really doesn’t know what to do in the weekend.. because I’m not there.. to be his weekend-mate.
I guess I just need to work things out, like immediately. I want to ease a bit of his burden.. I really want us to be happy. I didn’t know it would be this hard.
God, please help us.
I know I’m the one who asked You to grant my dream to France. If now I”m hoping him to be in here as well, am I too selfish?
Hopefully you will give a miracle to us.. so I don’t need to abandon my study.. and we can be together.. Thank U God.. I know I’m a very demanding girl 😦