a year ago..

a year ago, the same Easter.. I was in France, and I didn’t even think going to the church, because I don’t understand what the Pastor said. During 10 months there, I only went to church about 2-3 times to really pray.. while the rest are only visiting the church for sightseeing.

It is quite ironic that my biggest dream has -apparently, makes me far from God. It is God who allows me to reach that dream, but apparently it makes me far-faraway from him. I think that’s why He sent me back here 🙂

La Nuit Indonésienne

Yesterday I just had an amazing night watching (some of) Indonesian traditional dances at La Nuit Indonésienne (French words for Indonesian night)!

Cant’t believe that I never watched it live my whole life and watch it in France when I’m already 27!

I feel kinda ashamed and I promise to myself to appreciate more of Indonesian culture although they tend to treat us (Chinese-Indonesian) like a foreigner, but since we had the green passport (of Indonesia), we need to be proud of our motherland! 🙂

Saman dance from Aceh region, often called as  "The dance of 1 thousand hands!". Simply awesome, you must see it!

Saman dance from Aceh region, often called as “The dance of 1 thousand hands!”. Simply awesome, you must see it with your bare eyes!

Pendet dance from Bali

Pendet dance from Bali

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Papua’s dance

la nuit

Javanais Dance

Me and my friends :) Had an AWEsome night!

Me and my friends 🙂 Had an AWEsome night!

Teens

Tonight I was waiting for the bus at Saint-Anne, a commercial area in Rennes. There are so many bars in Saint-Anne area, my French teacher once said there was one person killed at that area few years ago because he was in the wrong place and wrong time at that moment. I didn’t realize tonight is “Jeudi Soir”, means thursday night, which is a party night for Rennes youths.

Why?

Okay I know it’s weird because usually people partying at Friday night or Saturday night. But in Rennes, since one-third of populations are students from suburb area around Bretagne (Rennes is the capital or Bretagne), most of the students need to go back to their home in Friday night after school. That’s why they need to party at Thursday night, and I don’t know how they manage to get sober in Friday’s morning class.

In front of me, there is one girl with red lipstick, but she didn’t put the lipstick in a good shape (most likely because she was drunk). It reminds me of another girl with red lipstick too.. Few months ago my classmates, Ameena, was being invited by her neighbor to join his party. Because I was there at that moment, she forced me to come with her. I didn’t want to, but she kept forcing me until I decided to join her. There were 2 guys and 2 girls in the room, they said they have been drinking since last night (can you believe it? 1 day!). The floor was sticky and I saw dozens of beer bottles everywhere. OMG, I think they’re only 18-21 years old approximately.

I noticed one girl with a red lipstick, because she’s so pretty and I’m sure she can be a model if she wants to. But, she’s here.. wasting her time with guys which is not smarter than her (oops, sorry for the judgement, LOL). She tried to act wild, she drunk wine from the bottle, hold it like a real drunker then start to take off her sweater and I was thinking whether in the end they will have sex or not.. then it will turn into a rave party. But thanksfully we came out before any of those happened.

All those 2 girls, both in the bus and in that room.. reminds me of pretty little french girls who’s running through me on the road last month. With her cute voice, she was saying “pardon”. I am one of person who agreed that French girls are one of the most beautiful girls in the world. Usually they have brunette hair, light brown or hazel eyes, and all that looks that will reminds you of aristocrate feel. Well, not to mention the guys too *wink*

I just feel so so ironic.. that cute little girl who passed me by on the street, with her tiny feet and tiny coat, will soon become those drunk girls. I guess when you turn into 15-16, you will start to feel obliged to drink and have sex. I don’t know what the parents would feel, but I think it’s normal to be drunk here.

I’m not saying that Asian countries is better, since there are some Indonesian people I knew had a baby when they’re only 15. I was just thinking on how to make sure that your kids can socialized, but have a self-control not to ruined their own life. I think that would be parent’s greatest fear.

But again, it is so ironic to see how drunk is a pass-key to be cool and trendy here.

While my friend said, “I dont know, when you drunk, everything feel more fun”

Bridezilla..

My dream rustic wedding :)

My dream rustic wedding 🙂

*An entry in Indonesian..

Ternyata oh ternyata, banyak sekali aspek mengenai pernikahan.. sekali buka forum di weddingku.com langsung mabok deh rasanya.. ternyata memang bener ya cewek itu banyak banget maunya, pantesan ada istilah ‘bridezilla’, baru dilamar udah menggila, LOL.. Pantesan banyak cowok yang langsung rethink..

Nonetheless, I love my BF lol.. because he’s sooo patient with me :))

Dari mulai mencerahkan selangkangan (halah), make-up mami, cami, lalala.. pusing deh rasanya.. pengen punya simple wedding aja, nggak pake mobil ala cinderella segala.. Betenya kalo liat fotografer bagus, isinya semua orang pamer kemewahan di hotel berbintang, padahal nggak tahu bayarnya pakai pinjaman tanpa agunan nggak, hehehe..

Kalo wedding impian gue sih simple.. Intinya: keakraban. Tapi sayangnya satu hal itu nggak bisa terwujud karena keluarga besarnya si jeffrey sekampung.. boro2 bisa ngobrol-ngobrol akrab kan, saking banyaknya orang..

Oh well, I’m trying to be simple though.. I hope it can comes true 🙂

BTW.. update mengenai kehidupan di Prancis.. yang sebentar lagi akan usai #ohtidaaakk.. Setengah hati bahagia karena bisa cium-ciuman sama pacar lagi *LOL, mudah-mudahan nggak ada yang baca iniii.. tapi setengah hati juga sedih karena nggak tahu kapan bakalan ke Eropa lagi. Nggak mau kesini karena business trip, pengennya buat jalan-jalan atau sekaligus menetap hehe..

Ah well, sekarang lagi uncertainty gitu, kesel banget deh sama ex-employer gue.. sebenernya mereka niatnya baik, tapi kok gue malah berasa diping-pong. Mereka main kontak-kontak gue aja, ehhh tau-tau bilang kalo nggak ada posisi yang sesuai, capek deh!! maunya apaaaa sihhh.. nggak usah ngasih harapan napaa kalo nggak bisa kasih sesuatu! Ibarat menerbangkan gue ke langit ke tujuh lalu dibanting keras-keras. Sebelum ini hidup gue tenang dan damai, memusatkan pikiran ke ujian dan skripsi, tapi setelah panggilan telepon dari kantor India itu, remuklah hari-hari gue.. #lebayyy

Ah well, this is life Stephanie.. you never know what future holds, surprise can come anytime!! So, what matter is yourself.. how you can overcome every events in life and be happy with anything!! so, let’s bring it ON!

Meanwhile, just focus on my exam (sigh) and the upcoming holidaaayyy!! Euro trip yang sudah lama kudambakaaann 🙂

La fin de mon course..

Bonsoir a tous 🙂

C’est moi, après 7 mois en France et la semaine prochaine mon course est finir 🙂

Feel sad because soon this place will be empty, LOL.. and I don’t wanna be alone.. No class means meeting no friends.. This is such a feeling, because ever since I’m here, I always feel afraid of being alone. I guess because of the language and culture barrier, no matter how much I tried to fit in -okay I didn’t try that much then, because I feel so lazy to learn the language :p, I couldn’t get things that I wanted.. not to feel alone.

I know that happiness is depends on ourselves, not others.. But as a human, we do need a socialization. If I asked myself, when was the last time I try to know new people? I think last week, where I felt freaked out because my friend of friend was drunk, and I didn’t even want to continue hanging out with them.. then I think myself is a barrier.

I dont’t know.. I should be grateful that God has give me opportunity to live here, as I wish for.. to know the reality that sometimes dream not always making you happy. Even being with my BF doesn’t always make me happy, but I still wanting to be besides him..

So that’s it.. everything has it’s bitter and sweet.. as long as you can make the bitter become sweeter, you can cope up with anything.. Anything that doesn’t kill you will make you stronger!

10 months..

Here I am..

Almost in the end of my courses.. 2 weeks left for me for seeing my friends at the class. We have been studied together for almost 7 months, of course there are some people I can’t get along with.. but some people also left marks in my heart.. Oh Gosh, I feel sad already 🙂

I think now my task is to focus on the super great moment that happens in here, instead of thinking about D day in the future. God says, everything will happened in the right time.. So I need to change my character who always planning ahead and never enjoy the present moment.. I love Rennes, I love how the city serve me in a simple and small way, I love some of my friends.. I were having a GREAATTT time with them like never before.. I will miss every single inch of this city.. Every single moment..

This journey is one of the best moment in my life, I never regret my decision to go here and quit from my job. By getting lost here, I actually found myself.