You, who weren’t satisfied enough with what you have achieved and feel that you don’t have enough energy to pursue your current established dream. You, who can’t get over your past and don’t have enough courage to face the risk of whatever you wanted.
Can’t you see where I am now? I’m stuck in a department where I don’t even want to be there. I have great friends, indeed, we loved to bitch about our boss or our bosses boss. But, lots of conflict happened, maybe because you will never get true friends at office. We’re been together for 2 years more, and sometimes we just sick of being together and sick of the same topic.. Always bitchin around, hehehehe.. I think we’re just about.. Expired.
I done lots of mistakes when working, and I always assume its because I hate my job. During clickin on my mouse and analizing on that spreadsheets, my mind always flying to over there.. My dream job. Every breath I take, every step I made.. I always wanna go over there. Even though people said I made mistakes with my choice, but I’m gonna take a shot on this, because this is not just about what’s in my mind, it’s about what i work on every single day, my passion, and my towards future.
every time i hesitating, i always remember this quote: “do what you love, and love what you do.” and that makes everything seemed so right.
when i got that chance in a local company, my heart is jumping. i can’t stop smiling, even their offer is kinda freak me out. but, in the end… i told my boss that i’m resigning. nonetheless, even though now my boss is following me to the same department, but it doesn’t change anything. i think i have made the right decision. giving myself a shot to prove that i am brave enough to have my own choice of life, despite all the money and position.
about the boss… c’mon, y’all know that both of my bosses are annoying. one, with all of her cheerful and sweet talk, it’s all a mask! it’s feel bitter when I finally realized that she done everything so she could get spectacular mark on her appraisal. sad, isn’t it. well, the other one is also make me disappointed in the end. she let me thinks that i’m her golden child. she let me flies around the sky, and then push me below the air and stab me from the back. when i felt it’s the price to pay, the other boss comes with spectacular marks and also having her dream comes true.
a letter from myself in present:
sometimes i feel, life is unfair. but then i remember, those who feel that way is only people who cheat. recently i felt that i don’t fit working in an office. i want to make my own business. i want to have my postgrad degree and then having my own business. my deadline is next year, while now i got to learn and having career achievement, so that i could got the scholarship!
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