ugh, i hate PMS.
it makes me sorrow with no reason.
it makes my tummy go round.
it makes my friends think i’m a weirdo.
uhm, well.. since i’m a woman, i cannot avoid this monthly period.
and this month i’m officially having one of my worst PMS.
waiting for someone who might not be there…
gw skrg lagi ngerasa kayak gitu.
pernah nggak sih lo ngerasa… lo pengen nunggu sampe ada orang terbaik buat loe.
dan skrg gw mikir… mungkin orang yang terbaik itu ngga ada…
cuma ada orang yang ‘baik’, dan kita melewatkannya karena berpikir setelahnya akan ada yang terbaik.
sorry yaa… i think too much… orang2 bilang gw terlalu banyak berpikir, hehehhee..
need someone to talk to.
i think i should not wait for the right one.
i just had a blast with someone care for me. right?
i feel want to write.
anything in my thought.
or something that i learned for past few years.
after working for more than 2 years in a consumer goods company, i know that supermarket like c4 would get more beneficial trading terms and exclusive promotion, things that would makes me go there frequently. and yeah, based on our government data, they already own more than half of the market share, but a consumer still a consumer. we prefer the cheapest =)
another thing, after having 1 credit card, i feel wicked. for just 3 months, my bills is along the way…. it begins to fly fly fly away high.. until i can’t control it. so, i decide to live without credit card anymore. well…. not for full, because i can’t waste those promotions upon my eyes. but, i will less take that wicked card. or maybe i will just put it in my drawer. i don’t care about the point. i can buy anything on cash… sigh! this is just one.. i can’t have more!!
to talk about love has never been boring. yes, i don’t have many butterflies in my stomach for him, even i still have few. God is nice… He gave what I asked for. I prayed, if he’s a good man for me, please make us closer. but if he isn’t, please help me to forget him (which is had a replacement). and yay….! i think i got one =)
I decide to go merry-go-round with boys, while i having a serious commitment is none of my short-term agenda recently, and it goes fun…. yeah, i need an adjustment to turn a serious and nerdy girl inside myself to be an easy going and fun girl. but i know, this is something precious i ever learned. nothing wrong with being an ambitious girl, but being a grumpy is.
I want to be someone who live the life to the fullest…
being spontaneous yet pursuing my plan in life.
being intellectually charming yet loveable.
being an independent woman yet doesn’t mind to have someone cuddles me.
being a great mother who’s also an incredibly cooking master wife.
he he he…. i know i can’t have it all, but never harm to try =)
i feel culdesac.
i wanna runaway to unknown place finding myself there.
i feel trapped.
my head keep spinning and spinning around.
i wanna go overseas and finding myself there!!
Trying to grab some sleep, after 13 hours sleeping today… well, sometimes this insomniac thing could be such an annoying…
how can we not to get intrigued with other’s success? if life is a competition, how can we stick on our lane?
After seeing an old friend’s facebook pages, she is currently living in Ohio, marry to a handsome and (looks) success man, listed as student at Ohio State University, and working.
Gosh, how I am so envy her. yes, no matter how I hide my feeling, but deep down inside I envy her.
but, well… get real. Trying to guess someone’s live is happier than us is not a good thing to do. I am only seeing her from what she seen in the pictures, but not her as real. We will never know her burden and her sorrow. And i should not consider life is a competition, because we have our own chosen lane. Do not get teased by someone who teared off their finish line first, because we have choose our very own path.
Huffff… well, my heart is so uncertain now. my mood had crash-over for these past days… and I don’t know what to do. After got the loop and reach my top of rollercoaster, now I’m back at the bottom.
I simply hate my current job, because my imagination of my future job in January is very strong… I have felt the euphoria too early. moreover, the politic get sucks here… I am wishing to pursue my postgrad as soon, so I can leave the dirty politic. I even think to comeback as an lecturer… well, there will always be politic everywhere, even in college. I don’t know.
My lovelife is getting worst… after several weeks being the flower and enjoying those bees…. I just have a bad fought with that selfish megalomaniac man. In the end, I realized that I’m alone, even though I’m trying not to be lonely. yes, if I stick with my option not to get committed to someone… I will always comin’ home alone. Seeing those cute pre-wed pictures at http://www.axioo.com had brings up my imagination. I should ignore and do my best not to get teased…. nonetheless, life has kept it’s best surprises…!
Now may I get a comfort sleep and working as hard as I can tomorrow! I got invoices to settled down early!