Mon Dieu

*Dieu is a french word for God.
God has been super nice to me since I arrived here. He gave me job easily, a job that I ever wanted. He gave me moments to enjoy with my BF. He gave me loving family..
He has been super kind, while I’m having difficulty adjusting with this city.. While there will be no perfect place to stay, but home is where the heart is. And my heart is in here.. I don’t know why I love him so much and just saw his back while walking on the corridor could make me fall in love with him again..
Love can make you fool, indeed.
But I definitely prefer to spend my life loving someone.. even though sometimes you need to sacrifice some things to be able to compromise..
Carpe diem..

My Travelogy

By far, I have land my feet on 68 Cities, 21 Countries.. Check my Trip Advisor facebook account for details.

And 50% of them were in Europe. Here’s a peek of my Euro Trip Journeys 🙂

In front of Milan’s train station

Moment :)

Death

This is one rare moment in my life where I thought I’m going to die.

When you’re healthy, death seemed so faraway and scary. Apparently when your body hurts so much, you wouldn’t care that much of going to die. Death even seemed better than a painful vain. 

You wouldn’t care about how much money you’ll spent, how much things you need to sacrifice in order to get rid of the pain.

I thought I’m gonna die, and I don’t care. I also understand I must let go people that I care when it’s about time they need to leave this world, because forcing them to be in pain is not a better choice at all! The best thing is to let them stop suffering and be in peace. 

The pain I’ve been through for more than a week ago was attacking my digestion system, now I don’t even remember how it feels to be healthy. Now I understand the pain of ill people out there, when they thought their world has ended, yet they are still breathing and there’s a life to continue.

I feel very sad and emphatic to my ex-colleague, her half body got stroke few years ago and she’s not completely recovered by now. No one can do anything to helped her, we can only smile and help her to walk. I guess as a human that’s the only thing we can do, being emphatic and trying to convinced her that she’s not alone.

Well I’m alone now, in my house. Yet I know people cares about me, although they also need to continue their life. 

I wish I can be healthy again, I really do, and I know this is a sign from God that I need to change my lifestyle. I need to change my behavior. It took a painful lesson to change.