When I talked to my ex crush, I feel very grateful that now I already have a man who don’t push me to the corner with his words..
In the morning, reading his YM message, makes me smile large 🙂
This one is his best quote:
“wafer eventually brings good things buat gw.. yg kdua adalah kunjungan vienna; and yg pertama adalah lo :D”
We met at the trial of one of wafer brand that I manage, and he’s replacing his friend that in maternity leave (he is initially held responsibility for plain sweetened only).
See how the universe conspiracy makes us reach this point..
Yesterday I read quote from raditya dika, one of the most famous twitter celeb in Indonesia:
“Love fades, but companionship stays. That’s why in the end we always come back to the one that gives us most comfort”
Anyhooo.. From this freshly new relationship I learned several things:
1. Love is comfort zone. Love might not eternal, but we will stays if we found someone who can gives us comfort, maybe because we’re too lazy to find new comfort, or we just don’t wanna take the risk to lose that comfort we already have.
2. Straight forward is better than trying to “make-up” things. Honesty is very important for any relationship, to reduce any mis-communication that might arise from hiding things up, just to make this relationship “seemed worked”. Yesterday I’m upset with him because most of the times he never confirm our appointment instantly.. He shift the topic into something else, and then might be 1-2 days later he’ll back to the topic. I know he might confirm his schedule to his mom/ sister, and I don’t have any problem with that, I just need some “waiting words” such as: “gimme a day to confirm it”, “I will ask my mom now, ya..”, etc.
Anyway, when I had that “moment of truth”, he said to me “I think I will love this journey” 🙂
3. I’m trying to be somewhat mature, and not to give him any burden when he’s leaving.. I’m trying to live our own personal space.. I feel like, I’m waaayyy ahead than my previous relationship (my ex told me, I’m gripping him too tight back then..)
Voila.. We are learning everyday.. We always do! Life is continuous learning 🙂
I’m very grateful that this year I have achieve the almost everything I wanted =)
marketing/ brand building career, check.
lovable boyfriend, check.
I just found this entry on my blog, 22 Jul 2009. when I feel so tired stuck with someone that doesn’t love me at all…. now I have the “real happiness”, cannot be happier 🙂
anyway, honestly.. i am extremely tired with this fake relationship. i feel like riding a roller coaster. at first, it was fun… but as the people gettin’ tired to gossip around, i feel tired to fake around also…
he went to vienna for 8 days and it feels like ages… because he doesn’t communicate to me frequently. seemed that he enjoyed being there, and he only text me once… huhuhuhu…
miss him 😦
i gotta do something creative, such as scholarship! or maybe seeking for a fling… yeaaahh, you wiiissshhhhh :p
When ure dating, sometimes just watching tv side to side without saying anything is good.
But I can’t have it yet.. My lodging house is somewhat very strict and old fashioned.. And his house is just too far and filled with his family
Oh Yes, my brain can’t stop thinking (bout unimportant thing hahahaha..)
Actually its not about the “stamp” that last, but its about the person itself. Is s/he someone who can fracted his/her mind or someone who just mix everything and can’t catch up with other thing :p
Oh, the last is so me..
Trying not to count it, but I’m clueless to give the title of this entry :p
I got an analysis (which might be lame, but its based on my personal experience). Somehow I’m confused why a man could be so so so nice when they’re in love (or like, whatever)? It seemed that the world turns upside down. Evil could be an angel, and in opposite (when they’re fighting, perhaps).
And then I tried to reverse the situation. Maybe he felt the same way to me? As he’s somekind of traumatic of his mate’s changing attitude (his ex changed her attitude after they’re start having a relationship -in which before they’re friends, and they’re okay.. Dig down from his story, I’m trying to analyze, those changes might be normal, because the status change, therefore feeling involved is also change -which resulted in change of attitude)
Though, I remember my past relationship. I also did the same to my ex, when he approach me (we’re just dating), I don’t trying to hold him tight on my arms. But as the relationship change into commitment, woman tend to complicate things.. They think a man is a prince riding on a white horse. They think a man can fulfill all of their expectation.
But, fortunately as I grow wiser and older, all of those thought transformed: there’s no superman, as well as there’s no superwoman. As we take out all of those high expectation of our man, hopefully he would do the same on us.
Anyway, I realized that love makes us ease our wicked and negative character, or perhaps hiding it. But, how if the love fades away? In which I don’t believe that love is eternal. Oh, maybe it is, but it will through ups and downs, like what happened to my parents. There’s some moments when they wanna kill each other with knife in hands.
So, my question is.. Is love really ease all of those scary, creepy, stinks attitude out of ourself.. Make us better, or…
Love give us the power (and the willingness) to hide it from our mate, so that s/he will love us forever (we hope so), but when it starts to fade away, it will appear in more scary shape?