I will say that straight to you.
I even dream to go and live in another country. yet, it hurts, but true.
even bad, after I experienced today. OMG, there’s so many road fixed, but they just can’t do it quickly! as a comparison, we can finish a mall in a time less than 6 months. so, I think we just need 2 days to fix a 10 meters road! but they just can’t do it quickly in Mampang… it has cause terrible traffic jam for 1 week, ugh.
Plus, when I take busway today, I was shocked to see so many scattered queque (yes, scattered.. they just don’t know how to queque) inside halte dukuh atas, and it is because the busway line to Kota is fixed!! ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!
so I have to “jubel2” between humongous people with different odors. yeah, and I must trough 5 trans jakarta bus before I can get into it. things that I hate, I hate being inside berjubel2 orang dan dipepet sana-sini, and we’ll never know is there someone take advantages from it (maksudnya pria hidung belang brengsek yang cari kesempatan mepet2 cewe. argh, screw you!)
I see this country as mis-managed, even not the only one. There’s a lot of mis-managed country in this world, but still I am hoping to move to a better country.
And if you still ask me the reason, I’ll tell you why:
-very very bad public transportation -> even I am a bravery woman, in a jungle called Jakarta, I still hate kopaja, metro mini, even busway, and I still avoid take all of those, if I don’t have to (sighs, nasib gak punya mobil). they drive like crazin’ freaks, and nobody even do something to manage it (I mean, DLLAJR). and we’re still wondering why pegawai Astra bonusnya gede!!!
-disgusting bureaucrates -> I’ve been through all of these: kelurahan, tempat buat KTP, tempat buat SIM, and now BPOM. Gosh, they have tempted my sense of killing. with all of the money thingy, I just have to calm myself not to scream! please, could you even remember that all of us will die? and we will bear all of our sins (include our corruptions) into the grave?
-unfortunately, PNS / BUMN worker mentality among my friends (and most of the indonesian people) -> I have only applied for one BUMN (or whatever it’s called), which is Bank Indonesia. but, I did not come to the first test, because I wasn’t ready enough to be a part of indonesian bureau crate. If meeting one or two disgusting people of it make me sick, how can I be a part of if? ugh, then i’ll be sick of myself….
then, I regret why all of my friends beg to be PNS. hey, man… why are you all chasing for a comfort zone? I know we’ll married and get childrens, and need a financial stability for that, but we’re still young now, and what we need is a personal development -one thing that I doubt will we get in BUMN. but, I respect all of people preferences, and I honor that. Just make sure, you will not being the part of a big corrupt family!
-education –> since it’s happening to me, I believe, education is the door to everywhere (pintu kemana saja). with education, you can through everywhere, even with poor financial condition. with education, you can open your mind and your soul to a diverse environment. but, unfortunately, our greedy government, choose to educate and feed their family rather to educate this country. just let total and freeport giving the scholarships, with 0.00000001 percents of their benefit, digging this country.
so, are you still asking for my nasionalism? I am currently being here, for sure. that’s why I still have a hope for this country, an audacity of hope.