There is no justice in my country..

but, sadly I still need to go back to a country that I don’t love..

Because someone I loved is there, and he loved to live in a jammed, flooding all the time, and one of the most polluted city in the world: Jakarta.

I just read story about Munir again, he’s the hero of human rights in Indonesia and 8 years ago he was killed by Indonesia’s elite military.. but until now justice hasn’t come yet. I heard sooo many stories where someone killed because they speak out loud about the crime happening in Indonesia, but after that something bad will happen.. either they’re killed, gone, or got into jail because of something they didn’t do.

So scary, really.

People knows in China there’s a lot of secret, terror, and you can’t speak for free.. but people thought Indonesia was okay, we’re a democratic country.. yet the fact is.. ZERO! we’re just as bad as another country, where money can buy law, justice, and souls..

Honey,

I hope I can still be with you without going back to my country. I don’t wanna spend my life complaining about the land I lived.. I hope.

Haw Par Villa Garden

Yesterday me and my Googler friends visit this Haw Par Villa Garden. Initially we aimed to play boardgames at Mind Cafe Boat Quay already closed!

So, in our disappointment, my friend suggest us to go to this odd and strange garden called Haw Par Villa.

From Boat Quay, we take green line from MRT raffles place to Buona Vista. And because we’re so smart, we take taxi from there.

Because we actually can use yellow circle line MRT which stops exactly at Haw Par Villa!!!

Apologize I dont have sufficient pictures now, but i’ll post it as soon as I got it from my friend’s.

I only have this pic now, the zodiac sign of Rooster.

See, Rooster best partner #1 is OX!!!

my bf sign = rooster. me = ox.

Wow!!

Sarawak Kolo Mee

My friend suggest this noodle, he said it’s very good!

We, Indonesians, always consider foods in Singapore tasteless.

The taste is not strong enough, because our tongue get used to Indonesian foods which are very spicy and has strong taste.

Name of the food is Sarawak Kolo Mee. From the name, you can guess that this is Malaysian cuisine. But, I wonder it has pork (Malaysian is a moslem country).

However, I tried it second time now.. And yes, it’s really GOOD!

For Singaporean hawker foods, this one really fit Indonesian tongue, MUST TRY!

the place is at B’gain hawker centre, near Jurong East MRT.

The price is 3.5 for regular portion and 4 SGD for big portion (I’ve tried both :D. If you’re a man, I suggest you choose the bigger bowl. You’ll able to finish it, trust me!)

Sarawak Kolo Mee and KOI cafe Yakult Green Tea

Not to forget, my newly favorite bubble drinks: KOI cafe. Before, my fav bubble drinks is Gong Cha Alisan Milk Tea, but I found out that KOI cafe pearls is smaller and so they have a lot of pearls in one glass! Plus, the price is cheap.. I bought this new launched item: Yakult Green Tea, medium size is only 2.9 SGD and large cup only 3.5 SGD.

I notice they have stalls in Jurong east, clementi, china town… But I’m sure they have lot more stalls. You can GOOGLE it 🙂

waiting

Waiting my man to arrive in the office..

Anyhoo..

Why on the earth, indonesian people always talking about marriage when someone start dating???

Oh Gosh, can anybody enjoys the luxury of being single ~i mean unmarried yet?

like a baby pig…..

after rinse my clothes, my feeling got better.

after all, this is nobody’s fault. i think it’s no use if i put blamed on somebody’s neck or even myself.

this is just a matter on how you dealt with problems.

life doesn’t always run as our wish. sometimes it sucks. sometimes it’s splendid. but sometimes it even sucker x-p

but after all, it was you who choose to smile or to whine. it’s you who choose to see a glass as a half empty or half full. your frown will not change your problem. but your smile may bright your mind a little bit, to find a way out. or maybe just to make your feeling gets better. but, it’s worth-it.

it’s like a baby pig. people said baby pig walk with it’s head down, because it feel ashamed that both parents is a pig.

but, human choose differently. whatever problems come ahead you, you have to stand still. put your head up, face it, and keep walking. because you can’t avoid it. what you can do is face it and live with it.

God….. i am worry about my future.

I try not to worry, but i’m still worry.

I shoud put 100% trust on you. when i’ve tried my best, all i have to do is put the result in Your Mighty Hands.

In God we trust.

jakarta great sale???

yesterday, i went to sency… to watch transformer and had a crazy shopping due to jakarta great sale, and finally my salary has appears in my account.

but, what I saw is only zara sale, with irrational price (suck! the shoes is still 449,000!!! and I just got lousy short for IDR 199,000) sick, sick, sick….

well, finally my gals ended shopping at orange, hehehehe… while I didn’t buy a thing. hmm, this jakarta great sale just not fitted me that well, i guess…

anyway, but i got several things in mind now, which i planned to buy:
1. body butter body shop… huhuhuhu… i want it since i was in college 😦
maybe i’ll buy the body scrub also.. actually they got night and day cream of vitamin E in small pot, with relatively cheap price (40,000-50,000), but i still considering to shift from my skin doctor’s cream.. it’s so risky, you know….

2. i want etude loose powder…. but i still got my palgantong, which i bought with a very expensive price! IDR 160,000 for 25 gr…. so i guess, i will delay this expense until 3 months ahead. no impulsive buying!

3. i want to buy gogirl mag… it’s been a millenium since i read one…

4. i want pempek and rujak uleg…. Gosh….. (i think i shouldn’t write it in my list, should i?)

5. i already ordered one korean dress by internet, hopefully the actual will be great (will be shipped to me in 2-3 weeks onwards), then i’d decide to buy the next one… it’s so pretty when i saw the pictures, though…

6. dvds!!! i need lipstick jungle, desperate housewives, and ugly betty’s dvdsssss…..

Goddess

finding God

just (really) rode ‘KELILING EROPA 6 BULAN DENGAN 1,000 USD’ book, and I just knew that most european people doesn’t believe in God.

uhm, well, at first I did something: judge them in my mind, because I believe in God. but, page by page I start to understand what’s on their mind.

they don’t really ‘not believe in God’, but they just disagreed when people loves God more than the human itself.

once said in the book: ‘karena bisa kau bayangkan bagaimana rupa dunia jika manusia bisa mengasihi sesamanya sebagaimana mereka mengasihi dan mengabdi pada Tuhannya.’

wow, I think it just a stab in the heart!
u can see the palestinian-israel war, the bali bombing, etc. we all use the name of God to hurt each other. forget all of the truth, faith, and in-secureness. we just need to love each other, it’s that simple and completely harmless!!

uhm, well, then I watched ‘da vinci code’ tonight which also talking about religion and the state of God. u can hear Tom Hanks said in the end of the movie, ‘it’s all depends on what we believe.’

overall, it surely refresh my point of view, before we talk about our faith, let ask ourself… what have we done to others lately? is it good or bad?

what so special about new year?

what so special about new year?

hmm, let me see…
besides it was another 365 days ahead, it also make us be older, hehehe…

but, since it was the undenial-able fact, so we decide to celebrate it =)
unfortunately, we should pass tons of people and traffic jam before actually celebrate it ;p
gak puncak, gak lembang, gak jakarta, gak hotel bintang lima….
all crowded by people..

so, I decide to celebrate it at home with my dad.
besides I don’t have any plan, I don’t wanna be stuck in the queque either.

but, today my new year’s eve cheered-up by a call at night ;p
a call make me realized no to feel sad and lonely anymore ;p
me, whose always stick to the life goals and be stressed-up when I can’t achieve it.
actually, I have go down and slowing my beat lately, but in fact it wasn’t enough to enjoy this life even better ;p

so, now i’m ready to shout the upcoming year!!
let God be with us, no matter what happened!

Kita tak pernah menanamkan apa-apa, kita takkan pernah kehilangan

been reading his book about 2 years ago, I always adore his quote (and his gut, of course). He is my Barrack Obama, hehehe… (lebai dehhhh…). A quote in his book which I always remember:

“Lebih baik aku hidup terasing, daripada hidup dalam kemunafikan.”

Then, I found this poem in Alaya Setya blog (http://aalayaa.tripod.com/) :

Ada orang yang menghabiskan waktunya berziarah ke Mekah.
Ada orang yang menghabiskan waktunya berjudi di Miraza.

Tapi aku ingin habiskan waktuku di sisimu, sayangku.
Bicara tentang anjing-anjing kita yang nakal dan lucu.
Atau tentang bunga-bunga yang manis di lembah mendala wangi.

Ada serdadu-serdadu Amerika yang mati kena bom di Danang.
Ada bayi-bayi yang mati lapar di Biafra.

Tapi aku ingin mati di sisimu, manisku.
Setelah kita bosan hidup dan terus bertanya-tanya.
Tentang tujuan hidup yang tak satu setan pun tahu.

Mari sini sayangku.
Kalian yang pernah mesra, yang pernah baik dan simpati padaku.
Tegaklah ke langit luas atau awan yang mendung.
Kita tak pernah menanamkan apa-apa, kita tak ‘kan pernah kehilangan apa-apa.

(Soe Hok Gie)

do you proud to be indonesian?

No.

I will say that straight to you.

I even dream to go and live in another country. yet, it hurts, but true.

even bad, after I experienced today. OMG, there’s so many road fixed, but they just can’t do it quickly! as a comparison, we can finish a mall in a time less than 6 months. so, I think we just need 2 days to fix a 10 meters road! but they just can’t do it quickly in Mampang… it has cause terrible traffic jam for 1 week, ugh.

Plus, when I take busway today, I was shocked to see so many scattered queque (yes, scattered.. they just don’t know how to queque) inside halte dukuh atas, and it is because the busway line to Kota is fixed!! ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!

so I have to “jubel2” between humongous people with different odors. yeah, and I must trough 5 trans jakarta bus before I can get into it. things that I hate, I hate being inside berjubel2 orang dan dipepet sana-sini, and we’ll never know is there someone take advantages from it (maksudnya pria hidung belang brengsek yang cari kesempatan mepet2 cewe. argh, screw you!)

I see this country as mis-managed, even not the only one. There’s a lot of mis-managed country in this world, but still I am hoping to move to a better country.

And if you still ask me the reason, I’ll tell you why:

-very very bad public transportation -> even I am a bravery woman, in a jungle called Jakarta, I still hate kopaja, metro mini, even busway, and I still avoid take all of those, if I don’t have to (sighs, nasib gak punya mobil). they drive like crazin’ freaks, and nobody even do something to manage it (I mean, DLLAJR). and we’re still wondering why pegawai Astra bonusnya gede!!!

-disgusting bureaucrates -> I’ve been through all of these: kelurahan, tempat buat KTP, tempat buat SIM, and now BPOM. Gosh, they have tempted my sense of killing. with all of the money thingy, I just have to calm myself not to scream! please, could you even remember that all of us will die? and we will bear all of our sins (include our corruptions) into the grave?

-unfortunately, PNS / BUMN worker mentality among my friends (and most of the indonesian people) -> I have only applied for one BUMN (or whatever it’s called), which is Bank Indonesia. but, I did not come to the first test, because I wasn’t ready enough to be a part of indonesian bureau crate. If meeting one or two disgusting people of it make me sick, how can I be a part of if? ugh, then i’ll be sick of myself….

then, I regret why all of my friends beg to be PNS. hey, man… why are you all chasing for a comfort zone? I know we’ll married and get childrens, and need a financial stability for that, but we’re still young now, and what we need is a personal development -one thing that I doubt will we get in BUMN. but, I respect all of people preferences, and I honor that. Just make sure, you will not being the part of a big corrupt family!

-education –> since it’s happening to me, I believe, education is the door to everywhere (pintu kemana saja). with education, you can through everywhere, even with poor financial condition. with education, you can open your mind and your soul to a diverse environment. but, unfortunately, our greedy government, choose to educate and feed their family rather to educate this country. just let total and freeport giving the scholarships, with 0.00000001 percents of their benefit, digging this country.

so, are you still asking for my nasionalism? I am currently being here, for sure. that’s why I still have a hope for this country, an audacity of hope.