happy :)

i don’t know whtether it’s good for me or not…  i just knew that i am so so so happy lately… i learned so much things from him. he taught me not to judge people… to understand that all people had their own preferences. nothing is wrong or right… they just making choices.

he taught me to enjoy life.. to always be grateful to God. he taught me not to see things from negative point of view.. everything is good.. always high spirited! 🙂

i know he got lots of flaws also.. and i can’t avoid that. i just knew that he taught me lots of wonderful things… and i am hoping that i can be happy forever 🙂

i don’t wanna be broken hearted, hiks….

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can love and reality be friends?

i just having a chat with my friend, we can call her Y. yes, she’s the one that i care much and just told me she slept with someone’s husband a few weeks ago… I think her problem could be solved if she move from her current company. by that way, she can stay away from being ashamed in her office, from the terrors of his wife, and the most important thing: stay away from that guy. thay guy who said had fallin for her and she fall into also… if they are still in the same office, they will never forget each other!

well, we all want a happy ending… but sometimes we just can’t control to whom we fall in love.

and now she had decide to stay… she wants to keep the lie, like everybody does. until when we can keep our deepest secret? I don’t know. my other friend also keep that from me. she always pretend in front of me.. in fact I know what really happening. but let it be her choice… it’s like a snowball effect, you always create one lie to closure the other lie.

it makes me think about myself. I know what I’m doing is not the best people can expect from me. but I know that this is less harm… life is about choosing, and now I had 2 options: back to my gals and let my feeling die like before *i’ve been there* or playing around with someone for temporary basis. and I choose the second options and making my own barrier to protect myself.

but I learned something from my friends. never compare our relationship with other’s. it would never be the same. the parameter is different…

started to be mellow again….

i guess i am nearly approaching my period or i just in bad sleepy mode, because i suddenly felt so mellow.

maybe it’s because he’s changing. at first, he changed into a way politer man with so many ‘thank you’ words for me. that’s fine.

but, he started to pray (according to his religion), and it makes me feel that our fake adventure will start to ended. as soon as he bought that living place, he started to get settled down and search for a wife.

for all these times, we got something in common, which is: we still wanna playing around and marriage is not in our short-term plan. but, he’s older than me… if everything in this world got it’s own moment, maybe this moment will fading away from me…

Gosh, i never wondering that it will affect me so much.

I miss the love in my life, I wanna get those real affections.

I want to get a master degree, but I think I really had to manage between love and ambition. I gotta make it balance.

can I have him, here now?

love?

today i had a chat with one of my senior in college, which also dating my friend (both of them went to the same college with me). then as usual, eventually we talked about dating. he said, if i don’t wanna get married, then it means that i’m just searching for a dating experience.

um, it makes me thinking…  i don’t wanna an experience, i already had one.  i just don’t wanna be lonely, that’s my one and only reason. after all, we’ll never know when will that thing so-called-love comes.. and i think it’s not fair for myself to make a barrier until how far i can involved with my love adventure.

i want to get a master degree before married.

but i gotta admit that i need love.

i need someone to fill an empty space in my heart.

so, just let it naturally ya… even though i was afraid to have a long distance relationship, but it will goes naturally.

qui sera sera… whatever will be.. will be.

don’t think too much, just act >_*

they told me to enjoy life..

guess what the difference between me and lady gaga?

guess what the difference between me and lady gaga?

and I really think I should!

life is too short to be filled with crankiness and things we haven’t achieve.

yes, climbing our dreams is important but enjoying the journey within is a must 🙂

i love my hair…. love when I touch it… so smooth!