okay, i may haven’t told you yet about this new guy. he work in R&D department, we’re in the same company though. I met him once 9 months ago in a training, and he said my face is older than my age! huh…
then after i moved to marketing, i work with him in developing a wafer brand. Since he’s a R&D, he did a trial for “my baby”, and my boss asked me to go to cikarang to see how it goes. well, he’s a cold man, but i tried to act properly because i will work with him for a certain of time.
short stories, several days after we met, he start to add my office communicator, chatted me constantly everyday, adding my facebook, then adding my YM. it happened in 1 week after we met, about early february. i replied most of his text, and day by day goes by… i told Ririn -my roommate that moment, if he asked me for a date, i might say yes. well, i haven’t had any crush for him, but he’s not that bad. yeah i do like skinny and tall man, while he’s chubby and a li’l bit shorties… but his face is okay 🙂
overall, i don’t wanna judge before i knew a man. i had give a chance to a man who always looking after me at office -it’s from the past, long stories… but he can’t make butterflies in my stomach, so i sadly had to say no. so, we’ll see for this one 🙂
umh, after 7 weeks goin’, he never asked me for a date. of course i felt sick and tired of it. yesterday we met at a consumer immersion training, and he just say a bit word. hmmm, i know he’s a shy guy, but c’mon… i’m a shy girl too!! what should i do? if he don’t want to push himself to be a wordy, why should i? i haven’t had any crush for him yet, so i saved the effort to other guy (the man i’m into recently, but he’s harder than this one. he had poker face. well -no, he just too nice to everybody).
so, tadaaaa… in the middle of my desperateness… yesterday i bought 2 of my favorite serial movies -desperate housewives and ugly betty, and i watched it all until 4 am! i woke up at 1 pm (crazzzyyy!!!) and taking a lazy saturday at my new lodging room. uh well… i am very lazy, yet don’t wanna spend all day at my lodging room, cause it means i will be very lonely and no talking all day 😦
then i started to press the button in my brain to memorize how many friends i have left. Gosh, i am lacking of friend lately. yasmin is at office, siska had appointment with her guys at 8 pm, nina has a husband, ryry just landed from central java, jenni: we planned to meet in sunday, yanti also has a husband, as well as citra and ayu. you’ve seen what i’m goin’ through??? everyone is married!!
uh yeah, i do feel this marriage blues… when everyone having their own lives, and i feel being left behind. but, nooooo… i gotta stick to my postgrad plan!!! arrrgghhhh!!! i gotta stay sane… this porky chop love needy thing has taken out my brain space to even fill the scholarship form!!
back to topic, today i felt miserable!! goin’ to grand indonesia meeting ririn’s friends in which i don’t know ’em well actualllyyyyy… then stuck into 2 couples and 2 single girls. they want to watch dearjohn, but i don’t. then i said goodbye, walk to forever21 store -been curious about “a store selling ITC stuffs with high prices”, natashia told me once, and indeed the stuffs is just like Orange, ITC wanna be. only with crazy prices. then i eat -used to be my favorite yoghurt in the past, alone. yessss, alone!!! i never felt more miserable than thaaaattt!!
hmpphh, anyway i used to do stuffs alone in college. why did it feel odd now, but feel normal in the past?? i don’t know, because we all changed??? or because i’m 24 now, and i feel miserable if i’m 24 and still doing all things alone?? it’s not a problem when i’m 20, because no one will judge you. oh no, because you won’t feel that much annoyed seeing couples, while you .. alone ..
anyway, i should get my alone spirit, because i’m going to study in America!! which means, i will doing some stuffs alone before i found new gals or guys 🙂
huaaa… it’s out of topic! i felt so miserable today, then suddenly when i got back home and my ugly betty download was done, yiiipppeeeyy!! … moreover.. i saw him buzzing on me again. then we chatted again -while i try to watch my ugly betty in black and white scene, ohhhh… so 1970s. and it goes blah blah blah, i told him i really want to watch hurtlocker…. and yeah, that’s “pancingan” (i don’t know how we say it in english, hints?). usually it doesn’t work on him, but now it worked!!!!
“do you want me to accompany you to watch the movie?”
“do you want me to accompany you for lunch also?”
Oh my God, that words… why don’t he just say it. “let’s go grab lunch and watching movies!”
i’ve been waited for ages, Goshhhh!!
so, well… i kinda nervous for tomorrow, what clothes i should wear, what should i do, etc etc… but i know he’s nervous too, so if there’s 2 nervous people went on a date, what would happened???? i can’t be nervous, i should be myself… um, maybe a little bit hiding my uncle scrooge thing :p
huaaaahh… it’s always been torturing went on a date with new guy… adjustment and adjustment. but this is how it goes to get the best one =)
nite all. i still hoping on that new crush actually, but since he’s away this weekend, so i can’t close the opportunity 🙂
hope tomorrow would be a blast!