every now and then*

*stealing colson’s words.

I am so busy memorizing the past, when we -me and him, the one that I struggled to forget, having those times together. started when we have vacations in bromo, continue to those days when he continuously flirted on me, when we went to gym together, and I personally saw his dorm, continue to never ending story when I.. again.. struggled to get rid of him from my mind.

but now, as I saw that blue sky upon me, through my father car’s window this morning, I suddenly realized.. that this present will soon becoming the past… and I won’t have enough time to catch my presence, because I’m too busy letting myself live in the past.

Then I remember, our times was never be too great. I just remember those sweet moments, when I feel so much comfort in front of him. But, I forgot.. I forgot how we started it in an ackward way. when I prayed time will go so fast when we accidentally walked home from the lobby together. When he teached me how to shape trisep, and I just can’t stop shaking like a dork. So, yes… I’ve through that ackward moments.

and yes, if I asked, “does people fit in each other along the time, or they just meant to be fit in each other?”

the answer is definitely, time.

It is the same like when I hang out with this man -let’s called it as Romeo, I felt very ackward and felt like want to crawling out of there.  But, for the 2nd time we pass times together, I feel more relaxed and comforted.

Therefore, if I can do it with him or Romeo, I can do it with others!

It’s just the matter how I want to open my heart for a new delighting experiences or not. Do I want to let myself miserable, thinking of someone who doesn’t think of me in return. Or I want to seek for a guy who really respect me and makes me feel special?